17 months ago, i fell in love with a really amazing and beautiful girl. She had the most contagious laugh, a great vibe, the cutest personality, and a smile worth dying for.
 
17 months on, she isnt that same girl i fell in love with anymore. i blame myself, and it fucking hurts.

I really hope you come back soon. The old you. I miss her.

Man...sunday's nearly up and i'm not even halfway through my work..
Life is so demanding isnt it.In every way possible.
We just gotta toughen up in every way possible then.
Me.I just died inside.












No one listens in real honesty anymore
but yet i have so much to say to you

Soccer in the morning was a disappointment. i kicked the ball through the fence.i'm still amazed how it happened.
THROUGH THE FENCE.usually the ball just gets stuck at the gap.but i managed to kick it through the gap an into the huge drain where
we'll never get it back.wtf -.-.
Bridge project in school was good.Finally finished the main structure.
Then Singapore vs Thailand was another disappointment.
ARGH LIFE...









Time will tear us apart
but it wont break
anything that you are
We wont say our goodbyes
you know it's better that way
we wont break
we wont cry
it's just a moment of change.

School's been pretty demanding this week..so demanding that it's
gonna be eating up my weekends!!
Finally gonna have a haircut tmr..thick hair + s'pore weather = BIG NO NO...








I've lost myself
now i need time to find myself again
but the future is still a mystery right? 

Friends Exposed on fb is funny everyone should go try it..
The rain cut short our practical today but my group is ahead of schedule so
it's ok! My cough is still bad i need to see a doctor...tmr..after persistent coughing of 2 weeks..
Alright time to shower and sleep cause i need to get up at 4 to watch liverpool lose...damn scousers.










A million words wouldn't bring you back
i know because i've tried
A million tears wouldn't bring you back
i know because i've cried

Note to self: Do not attempt sports when you have a fucking headache you fool!!
Ok now that's done..tmr is gonna be relax ttm day.love it when the house is empty and i have quiet time.
Everyone needs quiet time.It's good.
Gonna start research on my fyp..WHICH I JUST REALISED HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY COURSE.
what the hell have we gotten ourselves into.







Faces all around me
they dont smile they just crack
waiting for our ships to come
but our ships arent coming back
we do our time like pennies in a jar
what are saving for.

People spend a lifetime searching for happiness, looking for peace, closure.
We chase idle dreams, addictions, religions, even other people, hoping to fill the emptiness that plagues us.
The irony is the only place we ever needed to search was within.
Therefore i really respect you for being able to be this strong.
So anyway productive school day! Mostly thanks to my temperature coming back to normal levels.
Finally gonna get back to my weekly retreat of sweating my guts out at west coast ayer rajah tmr.
Cant wait.:D:D

They say if you love someone let them go,but they never told me what to do when they dont come back.
Stupid people who told me this.
We should all take a look at what we have now.then think of all you did to get it.
Because remember, it only takes a fucking second to lose everything.
One day i'll laugh when i look back on these tears, i just hope i dont tear when i look back on all those laughs.
And who the hell ever said life was too short? ITS THE LONGEST THING ANYONE CAN EVER DO.
Sometimes i just wish i hadnt met you because then i could live my life not knowing there's someone like 
you out there.You taught me how to love, how to laugh, how to cry, how to be a better person,
but you forgot to teach me how to forget you when you leave.

Ok i've ranted enough.

Regret.Why do we do that.Why cant we just let go of past mistakes.
Sometimes we let our hang-ups get the better of our life.
We may have hurt the only ones we love, done stupid things that we wish we could just undo.
But we cant. So all we can do is just let go.
So this is it. You've lost the love you had before. So i guess i have to lose mine too.






Forgetting someone you love is like trying to remember someone you've never met.
It's god damn hard.